Falling into and filling in the gaps

So I find it pretty funny that ten days after my last post I found out that I was pregnant. I told my hubby that I got him a late Christmas and early bday present. Now my baby boy is 6 weeks old and I can't believe all that has gone on in the last 11 months since my last post. Life is good, marriage is hard work but always worth it. The boy is amazing and I still can't really grasp that I'm his mother for the rest of my life. Crazy. I'm not going to go the community college route anymore because it will cost way more than the distance learning program and I will end up with only a certificate. If I go through AVMA accredited Penn Foster I will get an associates degree. Much more to my liking and about a fifth of the price. So hopefully I can figure out a way to spend as much time as possible raising my own son and also following my dreams. I'm still struggling sometimes to not be absorbed by life. I want to be an active participant in the world and not just existing in it. I think that as with everything growth is only gotten through the struggle so I guess bring on the struggles. I'm a tough snickerdoodle.