Exodus

I can tell that the last couple of times I blogged (months ago) I was in a pretty sad and angry spot. I'm happy to report to my nonexistent followers that I'm in a much better place now. I'm still a chubby bunny and I never ran my race...my hubby's back went out and I can't run in the summer in the hours I'm out of work, it's way too hot...this is the second year in a row I've started up in the spring and been running really well, then it gets crazy hot and I quit...I need a treadmill. Screw that, I mean I'm pretty over being chubby..whatev..

After some panic over the program I'm trying to get into potentially getting cut because of the economy, budget cuts..blahblahblah..the school I want to transfer too has decided to keep it on tentatively..now I'm having a hard time getting my three math classes and bio done and working 40 plus hours of third shift all at the same time to get in...especially because taking one at a time I'm paying for them and getting screwed..but it's all I have time for and since they're sequential I can only do so much at a time..but I sure am trying..

In other news I'm on cloud nine lately...work is work and I'm doing o.k. there but life is great...hubby and I celebrated two years in Oct, and we are really doing well. We really are a great team, we complement each other and he's like the creamer in my coffee. We're thinking about kids a lot lately because he's 26 and it just seems like if we keep waiting for the right time that we're gonna wait forever...you can never truly be ready and prepared 100%

But enough about that I'm really excited about the fact that I've started writing again...so far It's not as easy and flowing of a process as it used to be but I banged out about two or three pages of a story I thought up while driving today and other than my inevitable stream of thought style that I have to combat and break up into tangible sentences it sounds pretty good. I'm just happy to be creating again...I used to paint, act, and write poetry...I used to daydream artistically dammit and somewhere along the way i let myself be consumed by things I had to do and stopped doing things I like to do...

Well I'm putting and end to it now....I'm better than unconscious existence....I am better than baseline getting by...I deserve to do things that bring me joy and that challenge me...

So I'm gonna...maybe I'll post some soon